Aha...I have started blogging. It's a nice and refreshing feeling as far as I am concerned.I have always thought that I would start blogging but for some reasons always postponed it for the next day. Maybe , my aspiration of writing a good and meaningful blog deterred me but today I am feeling a bit elated so I have decided to finally get this blog rolling.

It's a different day today. I am feeling very relaxed and calm . Why is the question ? A partial answer to this question is that I have just completed the design of a current reference circuit. One of the few and rare days of my professional life when I am satisfied by the day's proceedings. Still, something is haunting me. Am I really happy is the question?

Today, while I was introspecting myself, I suddenly realized that I have tons of pending works in life, works I always wanted to do , goals I wanted to achieve, places I always wanted to go. It's not that I am not trying for it or I don't have a well defined goal in my life but somehow at every step failure is holding me back. My life today is standing in front of me and asking for it's meaning. Neither can I answer it nor do I know what am I doing wrong. Few of my friends who have known me since long can't help wondering why am I touching new lows everyday. Everyone is flummoxed. I have a tendency of learning from my mistakes and keeping my head high after each and every failure but now I desperately want the dawn of success. It's getting tougher everyday. The only thing I have right now with me is hope and never say die attitude. I pray to God to keep things intact with me. It's just the beginning of my long career and let me not get fazed by these seemingly unending failures. Afterall, hope is a good thing , if not the best of the things.
A few good things of this world have always helped me out in turbulent times.
The poem "If" by Rudyard Kipling is one of them. Here it goes, have a look.


If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream--and not make dreams your master,
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!

--Rudyard Kipling

A nice poem ...isn't it. I like the lines that I have marked in bold and treat them as the guiding principles of my life.

Yeah..., once again I am on crossroads of life but let me start afresh in my life ; with loads of smiles and vigour; with a determination to achieve my goals; with zeal and enthusiasm but O Lord ! show me light . Let me know my mistakes ; help me out but this time I would be victorious, I know it.